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The Journey to Baby Beaver.

It is with a heart full of very different emotions that I write this. This has been a long journey for two people who through different circumstances in life have always had the desire to be a parent. This journey has led us down a path of being foster parents, realizing missed opportunities in our past, and many prayers, tears, and anxious months trying to conceive naturally for two long years. Everyone in our lives know the love Chad and I have experienced, the closest to parental love one can feel, with the birth of our niece and nephew born 4 months apart. Everyone who knows us has seen our sincere love for children. We surround ourselves with friend's kids, family member’s children, neighbor's children, nieces, nephews, etc all the time because of the genuine pleasure we get out of their laughter and learning. Watching the children in our lives develop, achieve, learn, and grow seems to help us vicariously live out our desire to be parents through them. Although I had been off birth control for a year prior to our wedding, we made the decision just a few months after getting married to actually "try" and conceive. A year later, after hormone treatments, fertility meds, tests, temps, out-patient procedures, and a whole lot of disappointment, we started seeing a fertility specialist. Both of us had testing ran and every possible thing imaginable looked at, prodded, poked, and examined. Finally, we learned that I had PCOS.

Polycystic ovary syndrome is the most common female endocrine disorder, affecting approximately 5%-10% of all females. PCOS is a hormonal disorder (causing Endocrine Disorders) that involves multiple organ systems within the body, and is believed to be fundamentally caused by insensitivity to the hormone insulin. Although PCOS is one of the leading causes of infertility, the reproductive aspects of the disorder are secondary. It is not necessary to have all of these symptoms to have PCOS. In fact, it is not necessary to have "polycystic ovaries" to have PCOS. PCOS manifests itself differently in each woman. In addition to the above, approximately 60% of women with PCOS have weight management issues which can lead to obesity even with only normal caloric intake. Energy in the form of glucose (food) is stored right away as fat, instead of being made available for other functions within the body. This can lead to chronic fatigue and undernourishment, despite the fact that there is adequate food intake and even an appearance of over nourishment. However, it's important to note that 40% of women with PCOS are of normal weight, or even fall under a normal weight range. There is no cure for PCOS, but it can be successfully managed through diet, exercise, and in some cases medical intervention. Management of PCOS is essential, as unmanaged PCOS can progress to diabetes, and can also lead to certain forms of cancer if unaddressed. Proper management of PCOS often eliminates all symptoms. (http://www.pcosupport.org/what-is-pcos.php)

It was a huge burden for me to understand and then accept that this was something going on inside my body that I couldn’t readily fix and that “I” was preventing us from having a baby. After lots of prayer, soul-searching, support from my husband, family, and wonderful friends, and helpful therapy with a God-fearing and God-led counselor, I can accept that nothing is my "fault" and God just has a special path I must follow. I still don't understand the "why" it's this way for me, but I trust that is all part of a master plan. Under the care of the Fertility Specialist, Dr. Mark Perloe at Georgia Reproductive Specialist, I was diagnosed and given proper medication to help with a hypo-thyroid disorder, Type II Diabetes, and PCOS. Through the course of the past year, we have been on specific anti-oxidants, vitamins,prescriptions, and the ever dreaded 1700 mg. of Metformin a day. All in addition to the Pre-natal, Vitamin D, and Folic Acid I had been on for over 3 years. After 2 years of trying to conceive with more than a few hiccups, scares, disappointments, wavering resolve, and pure desperation, we have made the decision to use advanced medical measures to intervene.  It seems everything that could hinder this dream, has. Some scary results on the genetic testing didn't help either. Regardless of what man says, I know God is a higher power and has special plans for us. I think these trials and tribulations are preparing us to love and cherish a little baby God specially gives us because of this journey.

On July 30th, we had an appointment to finish up diagnostics and certain testing and re-testing that needed to be done to continue forward with our efforts. The next step we are taking rom here is the monitoring, injections, and IUI or Inter-Uterine Insemination. After conferring with Dr. Perloe, we will begin this IUI cycle in September. We had already set goals for ourselves that we would do up to 3 rounds of IUI in hopes that one of the cycles would get us pregnant. Dr. Perloe confirmed that we should plan on 2-3 cycles of IUI. We start the first one in September. Please pray that God sees fit to let this be the only one we need and that a Baby Beaver bun will be safely in the "oven" this month! There is no doubt in my mind that God created us to be parents and to have our own child. Through the course of some unforeseeable events, we have been given the opportunity to fill the shoes of parents temporarily, experience growth, stumbles, heartbreaks, happiness and learned so much that will help us be better parents to our own child. The Bible I grew up with tells me that God will give me the desires of my heart. There is no greater desire for me and Chad than to have a child of our own. Money, belongings, fame, fortune, nothing, I mean NOTHING is more important to us than to one day hold in our arms and look down into the eyes of a special creation that is the perfect combination of him and I. 

We created this page with the confidence in our hearts that our friends and family want us to have that as well. So many of you have supported us, encouraged us, cried with us, and prayed with us for this to happen. Though we do have great medical insurance, it only covered the diagnostic portion of our infertility bills and pays nothing towards the treatment cycles. So many of our friends and family have said if there is anything that I can do to help, here’s a shoulder, prayer, even a certain special sister and friend who offered to surrogate. We have prayed, pondered, wished, cried, and simply fought to endure through this difficult journey never losing faith that God has a plan for us and will give us the desires of our hearts – to be mommy and daddy. It will just happen differently for us than most people. We have accepted that.  When I found out about this site, I realized that this was a unique opportunity for the people we love, and the people who love us, to get to be a part of giving us the best gift of all. Through this site, you can get to be a part of bringing a beautiful child into this world for a couple who will give this child more love than can be put into words! I am not asking for you to just give money. We are not asking for handouts or begging for anything. Through planning and budgeting, we could make this happen in time. But “time” has been our nemesis through this ordeal. From getting older and the statistics stacking against us to two plus years of trying to conceive, time is not on our side! I am asking you to think about this, meditate, pray, whatever it is you do to look into and follow your heart. Maybe your heart tells you to continue to pray for us, maybe it tells you to call or send a card, or maybe it leads you to do something else. If you feel led to, no matter the amount, we would love any help you can offer with the financial obstacle in this journey to a sweet little baby of our own. There are no words (even for me!) to explain to you how much this means to us and how grateful we would be. Thanks in advance for your thoughts, prayers, and contributions in whatever form they may be to helping us achieve our heart’s desire….a Baby Beaver.

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