We are raising money to help with our dream of adoption.
In July 2010 we ventured down the IVF road again, and again, my test was positive! We held our breath as we inched to the 12 week mark, and everything was going great. At 20 weeks we found out we were having a little boy!
Our world came crashing down on us the evening of February 24th when I was almost 38 weeks pregnant. It was on that day, that I realized that my normally active son had not moved at all that day. We met the doctor at labor and delivery to have an ultrasound to confirm what I already knew…my son had passed away. I gave birth to my stillborn son February 26th at 10:30 in the am. He didn’t come into this world with a lusty cry…the only sound in the delivery room was mine and my husband’s sobs. We had pictures made of him, and buried him three days later next to my grandparents at a private graveside service. My cousin is a pastor and officiated the service. His sermon was centered on the scripture from John 11:35. It is one of the shortest scriptures in the King James Version of the Bible. It talks about Jesus finding out about the death of Lazarus, who was one of his followers. When he is told about it, the bible states that, “Jesus wept.” Doesn’t he weep for us when we are broken? Doesn’t he carry us through times like this? I know he was there with me in that delivery room, and cried with me as I held my lifeless son. He continues to walk with me through this journey…and I know he will ultimately place another child in mine and my husband’s arms. We will weep again…but they will be tears of joy! This has been a devastating loss to us and to our whole family. A son, a grandson, a nephew, and a cousin were all lost that day. My whole family mourns this loss. But, through this, our hearts and minds have been opened to a different path to building our family…through adoption.
The only problem is with several Intrauterine inseminations, too many ultrasounds to count, 3 rounds of IVF, and a hospital bill, we are all tapped out! We have begun the adoption process through a reputable and affortable agency, but this whole process will end up costing us $15-18,000. We ask for your assistance in making this dream a reality for us!