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Help with my medical expenses from bipolar, PMDD and a suicide attempt.

Hello, my name is Coral and this is my story. I have bi-polar and pmdd (Premenstrual dysphoric disorder). For those who don't what either of them are I will tell you about them.

Bipolar disorder is a condition in which people go back and forth between periods of a very good or irritable mood and depression. The "mood swings" between mania and depression can be very quick and also very destructive to yourself and your family.

Premenstrual dysphoric disorder (PMDD) is a severe, sometimes disabling form of premenstrual syndrome (PMS). Although regular PMS and PMDD both have physical and emotional symptoms, PMDD causes extreme mood shifts that can disrupt your work and damage your relationships. About 30 percent of menstruating women have PMS. Up to 8 percent of women with PMS have symptoms that meet the diagnostic criteria for PMDD.

Here is my story:
I have always had my ups and downs while growing up. I remember the behavior problems as early as 4 years old. I was being seen for possible post traumatic stress disorder when my brother Joey had died from a car crash when he was about to turn 16. I would cry and throw myself like a rag doll on the floor. My poor mother had no clue what was wrong with me. I would wake up from nightmares about death till the age of 10. My behavior never seemed rational. Screaming, yelling, breaking objects. I was never thought to be put on helpful medication.

I can't speak for my family but I know from my memories life with me wasn't easy for them. That is one thing about families they are not trained for what life throws at them and I am sorry for their scares.

Around the age of 11-12, I started my womenly cycle. Which most mothers would get excited also a little worried for their adulthood. ;)

Well mine was different. I began to runaway every month around that time. Cry and damage property with no care if was mine or someone elses. I ended up in homeless shelters and sleeping woods- rain, snow, etc. I was alone with no diagnosis.

All the clues where there, but no one that is till my loving partner Paul put the pieces of my life back together. We have been together for 9 years and even got him in trouble with the cops with my mood swings. He is the most loyal person anyone could know. He had just as much hell with me as my parents did just that he stood in my raging fire of emotions to save me. More than once...

It wasn't until I tried committing suicide that we were able to put a face on what I have. I was at a hotel with paul because I had been kicked out a place I had been staying at were I just couldn't take it no more. I tried a pillowcase tightly around my neck and cut off my air flow. With in seconds I was out cold. Paul told me he was screaming and trying so hard to untie that pillow case but my body was convulsing. Finally, he loosen it so that air began to come in to my lungs. I remember the hotel room being blurry. He screamed at me to help multiple times. I was just regaining consciousness, it took me all my strength to just understand what he was saying but it was instinct that really helped me to assist him with the not. I was free. I was breathing. I was not rushed to the hospital but I did go to Rogers memorial hospital for the suicide attempt (mental health hospital). I stayed in patient multiple times months at two of their locations.

Where I have been diagnosed and medicated to have a normal life. I am so thankful to be here, Alive to tell my story. Paul and Roger's memorial hospital gave me my second wind. Please help by donating towards my hospital stay. I take my medications religiously and I have been a healthy start for a half of a year now.
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