Trying to self pay weight loss surgery
Hello, allow me to introduce myself. My name is Brittani Fulfer, I am a 30 yr old female. I am 5’3” tall, and severely overweight. I am in constant pain everyday. It takes so much energy for me everyday to simply get out of bed and go to work. I struggle with depression and social anxiety, besides going to work I rarely leave my house. I hate the looks I get, and the whispers I hear.
My weight affects every single aspect of my life. I am unable to take my dog out for a walk. I do not go out with my friends. Simple every day things like going to the grocery store I do not do. I depend on my husband to go to the store which is not fair to him. Everyday tasks like taking a shower and washing my hair take so much effort. I can barely wash myself, and when I do shower I have to shower in stages. I wash my body first, then sit down and catch my breath and then wash my hair. I have not been able to touch my feet in over 3 years. I can not put socks on so I just don’t wear them. If I do wear tennis shoes that have to be tied, again my husband has to do it, and again that is not fair to him.
I have been overweight my whole life. I have always been the fattest person in the room. I have tried so many different things to lose this weight, some have been successful for a time but then I always gain the weight back and then some. I have done yo yo dieting my whole life, I loose 100 lbs but then I gain 150 back. Every diet program you can think of I have done. I know that proper diet and exercise is the way to live a healthy life, but I believe that I am so far gone, that if I do not get surgery I am going to die. Me just openly admitting that I am going to die scares me so bad.
I love to laugh, and I absolutely love making people laugh. I am a person who always tries to see the best in everyone. I love love fashion, and makeup. I love to shop and I would love to travel. My life long dream has been to go to have kids and travel to Jamaica. I live in one of the most beautiful states full of amazing natural sites that I cannot go out and see. I have a loving husband, fabulous friends, and amazing parents. My house is full of love and joy. My life is truly blessed. Even with all of those things I find myself in a situation that I cannot seem to get out of.
I have been through so many medical issues my whole life. When I was a kid I was hospitalized because I was septic. Later I was diagnosed with Hashimoto's disease. When I was 19 I was diagnosed with thyroid cancer. When I was 20 I lost 80% of my blood, and was hospitalized again.I have had my thryoid and gall bladder removed. As well as knee surgery. I currently have a hernia that surgeons will not fix due to my weight. All of these things I have paid for with the help of insurance of course. Please do not take this plea for help as me being lazy, I honestly am not one to ask for help. This is a very humbling experience. With all that I have been through, I have always tried to stay positive and keep a smile on my face.
Doctors on more then one occasion have told me to have the weight loss surgery. However I am unable to finance the surgery. I have insurance but the plan that we have EXCLUDES weight loss surgery. We are over the financial limit to get financial aid, through hospitals. I have tried to get loans but I have been denied. Unfortunately I feel that I am at a loss. I feel as though my body is my jail and I have been sentenced to a slow death. I need help, and feel that I am out of options. I am in need of financial backing for this surgery, I truly fear that if I do not get this surgery I will no longer be around. Thank you for taking the time to read my story. Any help at all even if it is simply sharing my story is greatly appreciated.