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This is Lindsey's blog about being 26, living in LA, going to grad school, and living with cancer.
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- The Power of GenerosityJanuary 11th, 2012
A message of gratitude from Lindsey, as we complete our GiveForward Campaign:
It’s easy to get the idea from living in and driving around LA that human beings, particular…
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Staying alive is expensive when you're a 26 year old grad student with cancer. Please help Lindsey pay for her mounting health care bills.
I live in Los Angeles, CA. I am 26. I am in grad school getting a masters in urban planning and I ride a scooter. I recently became too old to stay on my parent's health insurance, so I'm paying $500/month for insurance through premiums, not to mention the giant co-pays and cost sharing. And, I have pancreatic neuroendocrine cancer.
I was diagnosed in October 2010, just after my 25th birthday. Pancreatic neuroendocrine tumors are very rare and relatively slow growing compared to other types of cancer, such as regular pancreatic cancer, but at the time of my diagnosis it had spread from my pancreas to both lobes of my liver. I had surgery in December 2010 to remove many of the tumors–in my pancreas and half of my liver–and the ones that remain are in the other half of my liver, and they are currently being controlled with a two-weeks on, two-weeks off oral chemo regimen. There is no cure, only more surgery, possibly a liver transplant, or continued chemotherapy. I can't take a full or part time job right now (one with health insurance) because of the uncertainity of the future of my life with cancer. I'm fortunate to be in grad school, but without a signficant income, the health care bills are mounting and premiums are high.
With cancer, there are generally only three categories of living patients: those in treatment, those in remission, and those who have been cancer-free for many years (survivors). I don’t fit fully into any of these categories so I made up a new one: I am a liver. And it is going to be expensive.
Lindsey Miller's a Liver updates.
The Power of Generosity
January 11th, 2012
A message of gratitude from Lindsey, as we complete our GiveForward Campaign:
It’s easy to get the idea from living in and driving around LA that human beings, particularly the ones who drive around LA, are rude, unforgiving, frenzied, and sometimes, just plain mean. I think without my realizing it, this experience on the roads has expanded to color my perception of LA, and of people in general. When I was first diagnosed and realized that I wouldn’t lose my hair from treatment, this was one of my first thoughts–that the mean people of LA would treat me just as meanly as they always had despite the fact that I was now sick, and emotional, and constantly contemplating serious questions, and that, basically, the world as I knew it was shifting under my feet.
I feel a little differently now.
I still think driving in LA breeds meanness from even the nicest people (this is one of the reasons why I don’t drive), but I don’t think the rude, unforgiving, frenzied, mean attitude that people adopt on the roads here is in any way representative of the population of LA–or of the world–as a whole.
My experience over the past few months is a great example. All I did was post a stupid video and continue to write honestly and prolifically about my experience living with cancer. You all have come out–and keep coming out–to read what I write. You write me thoughtful comments. You write me nice and long and sincere emails. You give me hugs and encouragement and emotional support. You draw me pictures. You sing me songs. You take me out to dinner or to lunch or to coffee.
You send me amazingly generous donations.
I am still blown away. The phrase “thank you” does not quite have enough words to encompass how grateful I am for your support. I definitively don’t feel deserving of your generosity–it seems so much bigger than what i’m doing with this blog. There are so many causes to support, yet you choose to support mine. I am just some weird girl from the Internet who has cancer. Millions of weird girls from the Internet have cancer. Millions of people in general have cancer and other serious health problems. And yet when I asked for help with my medical bills and insurance premiums, you answered. My Give Forward campaign ended on New Year’s Eve, with 41% of my $10,000 goal. This 41%, along with a few incredibly generous private donations from friends and strangers given behind the scenes, has brought my total to just slightly above that $10,000 goal. When I set that goal, I thought it was ambitious. Clearly I was wrong. This will more than cover my medical expenses for this year.
Wow.
Dealing with the financial and insurance aspects of this disease have been almost more stressful for me than having the disease itself. So, in addition to covering my medical expenses, these donations are guaranteed to lower my stress level, and just make everything a little bit easier on me and my family going forward.
On a more macro level, you have also helped me recolor my perception of people in general. People aren’t their cars or their honks or their yells on the streets of LA. People are nice. When I become a planner maybe I will be able to help people feel less frustrated by the streets and the traffic. Or maybe I will be able to help shape health policy in this country so massive donation campaigns are no longer necessary to keep a person with cancer alive and taking their medications and doing what their doctors say. Either way–I will keep blogging honestly.
You will still see the Donate link at the top of my page. I continue to accept donations via PayPal. Liver transplants aren’t cheap.
Blessed by generosity
December 16th, 2011
On behalf of Lindsey and her entire family, I'd like to extend our gratitude for the outpouring of generosity and kindness through this site and personal donations that have been forwarded directly to Lindsey. To date, we've raised just over $5800 - incredible support from so many from across the world.
This holiday season, I want to thank you for keeping Lindsey in your thoughts, for your beautiful support of this give forward project, and send you and your family the happiest of holidays and a healthy new year.
$5300 from 39 Donors - WOW!
December 2nd, 2011

We have been truly overwhelmed by the generosity of our friends, family, colleagues, and complete strangers. Between the Give Forward site and donations that were sent directly to Lindsey, we have raised over $5300. It is truly humbling to see the outpouring of love, support, and well wishes for Lindsey.
We are so thankful for your donations. The $5300 will cover the premiums on Lindsey's insurance for almost 1 year. We hope to meet our $10,000 goal by the end of the month, which will pay for the co-pays, cost shares, prescriptions, as well as the premiums. If you know of any friends or family who may be touched by Lindsey's story, please forward on this page to them.
Lindsey Miller's a Liver Donors.
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The Buddha gave $1,000.00November 17th, 2011
"Keep smiling."
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Anonymous gave $160.00December 29th, 2011
"Wishing you all the best, especially in the New Year. Good luck."
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Anonymous gave $150.00November 17th, 2011
"Good luck!"
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RFB gave $100.00November 19th, 2011
"You are a flame of white light brightening all around you. "
Matched By: The Buddha
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Anonymous gave hiddenDecember 31st, 2011
"Here's to a more normal 2012. You are amazing!"
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Jenn Cooper gave $50.00December 31st, 2011
"Happy New Year! Much love."
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Anonymous gave $100.00December 30th, 2011
"You are an inspiration and have a great 2012"
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Anonymous gave $160.00December 29th, 2011
"Wishing you all the best, especially in the New Year. Good luck."



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